The doctor diagnosed “nerve pain” and offered me a variety of drugs, one of which I’ve already tried as an insomnia remedy and found the side effects outweighed the benefits. I looked up the other options on the internet and decided that my current sufferings aren’t bad enough to risk the possible side effects.
There appears to be no treatment available to repair the damage or prevent further decline, so my decision for now is to manage the symptoms as best I can. Most of the time I’m not completely immobilised by pain and, although things are getting worse, I think my quality of life will probably be better without adding an extra burden of toxicity to my system.
Like many other people with ME/CFS my body doesn’t handle drugs well and I only try new things if and when absolutely necessary. Past experience has taught me to be extremely cautious and to start with the smallest dose possible. It’s a family thing – my very healthy brother was once hospitalised after a bad reaction to prescribed drugs and other relations have similar sensitivities.
I do take take over-the-counter painkillers when necessary, and diazepam to help me relax and sleep occasionally, but I’ll save the heavy duty drugs for later. In the meantime I must heed the wake-up call and take better care of myself. I must take time out to relax my muscles thoroughly, do more gentle yoga stretches and maybe get a massage occasionally.